Been away from blogging for a while, but with the New Year upon us, I thought a little post was in order, perhaps to reconnect, or maybe just because sometimes I feel like my life can move along without me. Sounds crazy I know, but I'll try to explain. Often with kids in sports, working and creating when I can, it all seems to move so fast. I know down deep it's good and I honestly feel grateful that I'm currently at a place in my life that provides me with a lot of really cool things to do and be a part of. With my Mom living next store for a little over a year now, I feel blessed to have her so close, but I'm also reminded how good it is, to actually be busy. I know my Mom would love to be busy but her health prevents her from doing many of the things she'd love to be involved in. 
I remember when my son first entered kindergarten, my friend's Mom told me that "once they started school it would all go so fast". Of course when you're in it, standing there at the gate, watching that little guy with his giant backpack round the corner out of view, I just worried about making it through that one day till pick up time. But my friend's Mom was right, it has gone fast... that "little guy" started High School this year and it's sort of unbelievable. My sweet Bella will be starting Jr. High next year... also very strange to imagine. Anyhow, I guess every once in a while I need to stop and take a moment to realize all this. Maybe even more importantly, I realize that these fast fleeting days may well be those days I look back to later. These could be those good old days that people always speak of...in spite of all their watching, waiting, and wishing for the next "big thing" to happen. I'm so forgetful sometimes, I forget all sorts of stuff, drives me crazy, but I don't want to forget these times. I want to be awake and mindful, present and really here while my life happens. I know this isn't new information, heck there's entire religions based on that whole idea. I guess for me right now it seems pressing for some reason. Up until now, there's been a multitude of both good and challenging moments that have come together to create, this big beautiful life that's mine. There have been changing events and people that have drifted in and out of my life. And I know this will continue to happen, it's just part of how it all goes.There have been relationships that have been pushed and pulled till they nearly snapped, moments of wonder and discovery, but among it all are these small days, these little in- between the big stuff days, that I don't want to forget either. To me, they're also life changing and somehow important in their mundane instances of rushing, or waiting, wishing and wanting. When I think of all the time that's already passed I'm daunted by it. I so don't want to wish away my days, I want to be more present and with more than a little fear of disaapointing only myself, I'm going to try.
I remember when my son first entered kindergarten, my friend's Mom told me that "once they started school it would all go so fast". Of course when you're in it, standing there at the gate, watching that little guy with his giant backpack round the corner out of view, I just worried about making it through that one day till pick up time. But my friend's Mom was right, it has gone fast... that "little guy" started High School this year and it's sort of unbelievable. My sweet Bella will be starting Jr. High next year... also very strange to imagine. Anyhow, I guess every once in a while I need to stop and take a moment to realize all this. Maybe even more importantly, I realize that these fast fleeting days may well be those days I look back to later. These could be those good old days that people always speak of...in spite of all their watching, waiting, and wishing for the next "big thing" to happen. I'm so forgetful sometimes, I forget all sorts of stuff, drives me crazy, but I don't want to forget these times. I want to be awake and mindful, present and really here while my life happens. I know this isn't new information, heck there's entire religions based on that whole idea. I guess for me right now it seems pressing for some reason. Up until now, there's been a multitude of both good and challenging moments that have come together to create, this big beautiful life that's mine. There have been changing events and people that have drifted in and out of my life. And I know this will continue to happen, it's just part of how it all goes.There have been relationships that have been pushed and pulled till they nearly snapped, moments of wonder and discovery, but among it all are these small days, these little in- between the big stuff days, that I don't want to forget either. To me, they're also life changing and somehow important in their mundane instances of rushing, or waiting, wishing and wanting. When I think of all the time that's already passed I'm daunted by it. I so don't want to wish away my days, I want to be more present and with more than a little fear of disaapointing only myself, I'm going to try. |
| Ernie & I on our honeymoon, not so long ago :) |
I'll keep moving and do the best I can for the moment, I keep praying for us and keep remembering the Wishing Tree and do what I can right now, even if I feel it's not good enough, because it's what I can do, and I'm grateful for that.
Thanks for listening, Bridgette
P.S. If any of you out there with kids that are all grown up have any insights for me about how to keep moving without missing all the important stuff, comment away :) XO
Also leather, and in perfect condition. 
Beautiful Booth Award! 
who stayed with me for the whole show! Here she is with her auntie Catherine and two of our sweet friends Carrie & Amy who traveled over an hour to see us here!
the current reigning Mrs. Greater Los Angeles , no joke she's competing this Sunday for a Mrs. California title! Wish her luck.
Well I better get back to work and finish those new pieces!
We started with the tags.
Well it just so happened that last week when I went to drop off a few new pieces for Lolo Boutique, Susan mentioned she had no artist for Fullerton's first Friday Art Walk. Fortuitous happenstance? Perhaps. Whatever it is, I happily accept the serendipity of this gift. So it's Bella Luna Arts, this Friday night at Lolo Boutique in downtown Fullerton. 
These pieces are actually already living with their new owners (unless they were purchased for gifts)but you get the idea, for new things to come this Friday :)
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